Aside

weak

i spent all day yesterday not calling you,
not texting you and not messaging you.
like a jerk, like a stupid man,
i am proud that i said nothing…
because it was the hardest thing i did all day…
but space is needed, even if not cheap…

space for me and space for you
space for me to think of you
space for you to think of me
space for us to think of us
even if there never has been an us
and never will be

i don’t know what tomorrow brings
i don’t care where today ends
all i know is not calling you
made me feel strong
made me be strong

and today i am weak.
for today i must speak.